turn about

i just finished reading the boy who came back from heaven. i must say that something has taken a turn for the better. my spirits are high. i am filled with a hope. something about that account just makes the eternal more of a thing to live for. like i have been returned to my first love. this book coupled with you, hillsong, and brooke fraser's who are we fooling, have just redirected my path. i know the mountain top experiences are not meant to last, but i am ever so grateful for this fresh wind, this new perspective.

second quilt

finished my second quilt in the wee hours of sunday morning.i haven't really figured out how to miter the corners, so, needless to say, the quilt is not perfect. it is pretty, though. corey says that it reminds him of jane austen, which, of course, warms my soul.

the quilt is actually a baby gift for a dear couple. i'm not sure why, but i am very excited about this child. for now, i have just surrendered to the fact that i am especially drawn to the nurturing of this child, rather than feeling weird about it. every person is special, but only certain people hold special places in one's life. it's a start.

couldn't resist a photo shoot with elijah and the quilt. the photos turned out nicely. the first one especially. you can't pose babies, and he looks just like he's praying. what a special boy!

my darling daughter is now writing poetry-for fun. i am so overjoyed. of course i want my children to be their own unique persons, but i also find it extremely refreshing when we actually have common interests. i truly see her blossoming into a singer songwriter like her daddy, but until that day comes, i will celebrate that she is a poet, like me.

Aqualung - Good Times Gonna Come

this video kinda embodies what i'm talking about. how long must we falter before we take flight?

think for yourself

while talking with a dear friend earlier, i realized something intriguing. for some reason, i have it in my head that unless my thoughts are validated by an outside source, they themselves are invalid. what a strange concept. i am so afraid to think for myself that i must seek another person to hide beneath. this is absolute craziness. why is it so difficult to think for yourself? why does the fear of confrontation cause me to cower, to go along with things i do not believe at all, just to keep the peace? i don't want to live confined by fear. i want to soar, to rise above the temporal. i want to be me. how we rob the world when we hide the unique creation that we really are. i'm not sure the resolution, but i am sure that the revelation will reset my path. only time will tell. for now, i am okay with possibility and the indefinite.

I finally finished my 1st quilt. It may have taken nearly 6 months, but it is done. I actually finished something I started!!! What progress. Who takes a quilting class 6 weeks before they are due to deliver a baby anyway? Oh, that would be me. I am well pleased!

we survived my sons 1st week of middle school. yea! it is funny how about a year ago i started getting nostalgic about middle school. this was followed by several dreams with random people from that time of my life. god started preparing me a year in advance for this transition. elijah may be the only thing keeping me from freaking out and becoming totally overprotective and weird. at least i can acknowledge it.

andrew's 1st dance is friday. apparently we are just going to dive into the teenage years headfirst, without much warning. i never liked inching my way into things anyway.

in other news, i bought strawberries to make jam with. it will get done this time! i also bought some fabric to make a quilt for a couple who is having a baby soon. it's good that i have crafting supplies, because i am pretty much landlocked for the next 2 weeks. the price you pay for being a stay at home mom! i am grateful to have the opportunity to do it, though. it is a blessing for me to be here for my children. i love it! don't let my tone confuse you, i just have an eeyore personality.