Aqualung - Good Times Gonna Come

this video kinda embodies what i'm talking about. how long must we falter before we take flight?

think for yourself

while talking with a dear friend earlier, i realized something intriguing. for some reason, i have it in my head that unless my thoughts are validated by an outside source, they themselves are invalid. what a strange concept. i am so afraid to think for myself that i must seek another person to hide beneath. this is absolute craziness. why is it so difficult to think for yourself? why does the fear of confrontation cause me to cower, to go along with things i do not believe at all, just to keep the peace? i don't want to live confined by fear. i want to soar, to rise above the temporal. i want to be me. how we rob the world when we hide the unique creation that we really are. i'm not sure the resolution, but i am sure that the revelation will reset my path. only time will tell. for now, i am okay with possibility and the indefinite.

I finally finished my 1st quilt. It may have taken nearly 6 months, but it is done. I actually finished something I started!!! What progress. Who takes a quilting class 6 weeks before they are due to deliver a baby anyway? Oh, that would be me. I am well pleased!

we survived my sons 1st week of middle school. yea! it is funny how about a year ago i started getting nostalgic about middle school. this was followed by several dreams with random people from that time of my life. god started preparing me a year in advance for this transition. elijah may be the only thing keeping me from freaking out and becoming totally overprotective and weird. at least i can acknowledge it.

andrew's 1st dance is friday. apparently we are just going to dive into the teenage years headfirst, without much warning. i never liked inching my way into things anyway.

in other news, i bought strawberries to make jam with. it will get done this time! i also bought some fabric to make a quilt for a couple who is having a baby soon. it's good that i have crafting supplies, because i am pretty much landlocked for the next 2 weeks. the price you pay for being a stay at home mom! i am grateful to have the opportunity to do it, though. it is a blessing for me to be here for my children. i love it! don't let my tone confuse you, i just have an eeyore personality.